I’ve been thinking a lot about my ego and the way it shows up and informs my thoughts and behaviors.
My first thought was how to get rid of it. But, after doing some reading about what the ego is, I came to an understanding of my ego and its purpose. I realized that vanquishing my ego isn’t really necessary. Coming to this understanding made me want to love on my ego. So often the best response is: just show love.
I imagine that my ego is an angry scared little brown girl that looks just like me. She is trying to navigate a reality that is constantly telling her who she is, what she should do, who she should be with, and where she should be. Being bombarded with all those directives can be frustrating and confusing. She is attempting to perceive this world from place of anger and fear. Damn. So, I wrote her a letter.
Dear Little brown ego,
I love you. Our higher self is here. God is here. We are in the present moment. We are grateful. You can do whatever you want. You do not have to stick to the same old patterns. You are not bound by tradition or the advice of people who don’t know you or the truth within your spirit. I love you ego. Thank you for reminding me of who I am not. Thank you for pushing me to be present.
I have let go of my expectations of my ego. I simply guide her sometimes angry ass to more peaceful patterns. Often times I just get really silent and turn my energy off; anger and fear need energy to persist. I imagine myself hugging her until the hurt, lies, negative perception, and fear melt and then I step back and just let her be.
We are free Little brown ego. We are free.
Photos courtesy of : DC Moody
Good Read on the ego: http://www.pathwaytohappiness.com/happiness/2013/02/26/what-is-the-ego/