bs narratives

do not

walk in agreement

with the bullshit people say about

you

Get to know God and who he created you to be

He’ll send you who you need to point you in the right direction

Real connections

He may even sit you down for some good ole self reflection

So save your energy and let the fools chat – they are distracted

learn from this behavior and stay focused

you have things to do boo

Author’s Note: hens cluck and cocks crow I still don’t give a f*ck though- run ya mouth *laughs and gets back to it

Deserted Heart

slow growing solo like a saguaro in the desert’s heart

i don’t need much

God, water, sunlight

everything and everyone else, a deeply appreciated plus but not necessarily a must

…The spirit of God was hovering over the waters – i read that verse again and again – Genesis 1:2 – and sit by the sea every time i am blessed with the chance

in the beginning i thought i knew but i didn’t

know

anything

the hopeless romantic within me died on a lightless day last November – 2 to the heart

Held her in my arms as she took her last breathe

It was inevitable though

Made an idol out of romance and watched it fall – shattered my heart in the process

Broken hearted and repentant

i wear black and dark shades mourning the loss of this part of me – parts of me –

God talks me through and walks me through this grief

Reminding me of who He is as i read his word

The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. – Psalms 34:18

i feel his closeness no matter how the day finds me or where it takes me

i wait on my new heart -another one of his promises -with endless blooming belief

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a new heart of flesh –Ezekiel 36:26

slow growing solo like a saguaro in the desert’s heart

i don’t need much

God, water, sunlight,

and a new heart

Author’s Note: God bless the shooter.

black and dark shades

Made a playlist of the songs i listened to as i wrote this : https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/deserted-heart/pl.u-MDAW2aGsqP3727

Photo via Unsplash by Abhi M

Clarity’s river

Clarity came with consequences

Can’t unsee the seen

Can’t “unknow” the known

pawn made a queen

Or

queen made a pawn

?

Waking up from the dream

Tears cried turned to rivers

Baptized in truth

The minute hand and hour hand carry her forward

Boxes now packed

Suitcases sit stacked

There is no coming back

Closed red doors

Burnt umber bridges

Beautiful, a bit broken, and headed to healing

Clarity came with consequences

Photo via Unsplash-by Eric Johnson

https://unsplash.com/@citydrown/portfolio

Take a listen: https://www.instagram.com/p/CN-mEnnnOB2/?utm_source=ig_web_button_share_sheet

Hush little baby

do you think that bravery is stronger than anxiety?

I do

I imagine bravery carrying anxiety on its back effortlessly like a tiny baby wrapped in beautiful fabric…

Bravery moves through life and in that movement, in taking action, anxiety baby is lulled to sleep.

Hush little baby

But cry if you need to

We’ve got things to do

Book recommendation: Soothe Your Nerves: The Black Woman’s Guide to Understanding and Overcoming Anxiety, Panic, and Fear by Dr. Angela Neal-Barnett

UNchanging value

strong black woman, bright streak of independence

same black woman sometimes feels weak and dependent

her value does not change as her emotions do

understand this

Don’t put more on her plate because of her race or the alleged pace you and that society you belong to believe she should be / could be running at

and if you can’t find empathy and understanding for her

keep

it

pushing

Please.

She does not have time for anymore negativity or foolishness

God sent her here on a mission

and she does not need your permission for…

anything

Understand that, simple human made of the same dust as she

Strong black woman with a dark streak of independence

Same black woman sometimes feels weak and dependent

Her value never changes

Priceless

Beautiful Photo: via Unsplash; photographer: Jessica Felicio

https://unsplash.com/@jekafe/portfolio

Take a listen:

https://music.apple.com/us/album/leave-me-alone-a-colors-show/1544476570?i=1544476572

https://music.apple.com/us/album/peng-black-girls-remix-a-colors-show-feat-jorja-smith/1544810035?i=1544810036

That heart though…

That heart that God gave you won’t let you settle…

so don’t

She laughs when I tell her there is a dude out here somewhere reading the Bible and making fruit juices too

Bone of my bone

Flesh of my flesh

We say those words in unison

Reminding each other

To

Wait

on

it

That heart that God gave you won’t let you settle

So don’t

So don’t though…

Wait

on

it

Just *wait.

* Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14 NIV

a succulent & 3 cacti

Melba the succulent
Tiffany the cactus
Tony and Tone the cacti and friend

Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness. Colossians 2:7 (NLT)

Uprooted i was

Replanted by God’s hands

Rooting in Him

Still prickly though

God’s cactus