UNchanging value

strong black woman, bright streak of independence

same black woman sometimes feels weak and dependent

her value does not change as her emotions do

understand this

Don’t put more on her plate because of her race or the alleged pace you and that society you belong to believe she should be / could be running at

and if you can’t find empathy and understanding for her

keep

it

pushing

Please.

She does not have time for anymore negativity or foolishness

God sent her here on a mission

and she does not need your permission for…

anything

Understand that, simple human made of the same dust as she

Strong black woman with a dark streak of independence

Same black woman sometimes feels weak and dependent

Her value never changes

Priceless

Beautiful Photo: via Unsplash; photographer: Jessica Felicio

https://unsplash.com/@jekafe/portfolio

Take a listen:

https://music.apple.com/us/album/leave-me-alone-a-colors-show/1544476570?i=1544476572

https://music.apple.com/us/album/peng-black-girls-remix-a-colors-show-feat-jorja-smith/1544810035?i=1544810036

well hello 2021…

Me on the phone with God

The truth is unchanging

Real love endures

God’s love transforms

Karma ain’t real

I call myself/my self Young Grandma now and spent hours on the phone with God these days.

Having learned the hard way that chatting it up with humans that don’t grow you or don’t even really know you is just an epic waste of time.

But many of us have had to learn this lesson.

It annoys me that people try to figure each other out via the interwebs- Peering into screens as opposed to peering into the souls of our peers, colleagues, and loved ones in real life.

I don’t freely or intimately speak with many anymore but I listen freely, offering advice only when I am asked or when I can bill one for it.

It is what it is- tired of being kind then called fake – or being stern/honest then called aggressive by people who don’t know me or themselves for that matter.

I have always appreciated quality over quantity and am absolutely blown away and grateful for the genuine God filled people that share their truths with me and allow me to share mine.

Thank you.

Thank God.

I am very much an imperfect sinner. I smiled as I wrote that.

But my brother Jesus gave me his g-pass so I’m saved. There is no sibling this loving, merciful, and forgiving.

Get to know Him.

By g-pass I mean gospel pass.

Laughs – only one I will ever need.

What is the gospel? – I was asked this question every Friday for four weeks and though I can answer the question I am not yet ready to write a succinct answer.

So I have included a link to a book that can answer that question at the end of this post.

I think of myself as a warrior – it’s more empowering then being a victim more sane then being Catwoman.

I mean I was raised by literal warriors – military soliders.

a man and a woman – a husband and a wife – a mother and a father

My parents…

It is safe to say that I have a good deal of fight in me.

God is teaching me to fight the right fights though- to come to Him first and quite often I leave the battles at His feet & He does the rest… then I can rest.

True peace that only God can give.

Rest.

My older lady best friend and my mom (former soldier) often remind me to put on the armor of God.

This I do daily.

Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. Ephesians 6:11

I do be. Laughs

If you can’t handle my grammar or punctuation please (kindly) get off my site.

Remember this is my sliver of the interwebs.

Transformation is the quest for this caterpillar in Christ… accepting the way God made me, repenting daily, rejecting the way the world attempts to play me – thanking the people that pay me.

Laughs.

Future me said the caterpillar 🐛

*looks around blog

I’m not sure what this blog is but it’s fun to write without dead lines.

I appreciate you dear readers from around the world- I see you.

I will leave you with one last scripture and links to things I dig on the inter-webs.

Peace – until next time dear reader – you are loved.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Psalms 143:8

Timeless truth: https://www.amazon.com/What-Gospel-9Marks-Greg-Gilbert/dp/1433515008#immersive-view_1610102233405

Timeless style: https://rachelcomey.com/

Timeless reading: https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/article/item/whats_driving_political_violence_in_america

Timeless Sound: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9OgU-W-ItG0

L trainin’

The river of people flow into the subway

Rushing like a waterway from stop to stop

Upstream and Downstream

Downtown to Uptown

From place to place and point to point

The river of people flow into the subway some on their phones on the way to homes and everywhere in between

Their heartbeats create heat as the trains ebb and flow from bank to bank

Wading through the sea of people

I find my way in the flow

Unstoppable this wave of flesh coursing through the city

The river of people flow into the subway rushing like a waterway

And I find my way in flow

Does the L go to the O?

 

Retrograde (Dec 3-22)

83C21132-3FBA-4A76-9CB6-EFBEF7AD4E1D.jpegRetrograde is beautiful. I visualize myself walking backwards with a bright light. I shine that light on all my shadows and all my past shit that I need to let go. Bye!- I say in a thick southern accent.  I set the intention to dance slowly as we retrograde. I set the intention to activate the patience God sent me. Take yo’ time and let’s retrograde. *Bankhead bounces in slow mo’  We are okay.

Article for ya :

Intuitive Astrology: Mercury Retrograde December 2017

 

 

Heart/Home

Home is where the heart is

Stop

Take 3 deep breaths and put your hand on your chest

Home is where the heart is and your heart is in your body

The temple of your body is your home

How are you taking care of your home?

Have you prayed in the temple for your temple?

Home Home

Home is where your heart beats

Where your nerves and brain meet

Heart Heart

Heart is where your home is

Diamond like Love

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Their love was made of diamonds so she could wait for him and he could wait for her…
I think that I have made love much harder than it needs to be. Listening to voices that weren’t my own. Not understanding what love really is. Even being too hard on myself and him too.
Its been a rough couple of months. Showtime show worthy. The memory that often brings me back to center is of him holding me and me feeling safe enough to sleep.
Maybe that’s love. Love holds on to you securely even when you have lost your mind and patiently waits for you to find your way back.
I have a love like that. I do. But I’ve got to make sure that I can evenly exchange. I must love myself in a strong secure unwavering way. I believe I do.
He tells me he’s not going anywhere. It seems that neither am I.
Their love was made of diamonds so she could wait for him and he could wait for her…
August I am waiting.