death of a queen/ seat of consciousness

dear warrior queen,

meet us at the edge of darkness and the rim of light.

divided for too long we have been.

love,

i am + sister nature

I woke up to this letter pinned to the breastplate of my rose gold armor.

My heart always opens for them – I mean they are who I have been fighting for all these years… Right?

Dawning on me like the morning sun I realize that I am enslaved to this ”fight”

And if I am not free… then neither are they

So to free me is to free she because we are a we

Hmmm…

I denounce the crown and throw my selenite sword into the lake of fire

Back to the hell, it came from

I am willing to do anything to free us

War-torn

Forlorn and sensitive

This is no way to live or die

I walk back through the forest of forever

Dropping my armor as I go

Shaking this load off

I am headed to meet my selves at the rim of light, the edge of darkness

I hear them singing as I approach

Ahhhh, we’ve been waiting for you my love she says as sister nature nods -We saved you a seat…

to be continued…

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Lauren, Oro, and Ava

I people watch in the park.

I saw these fly young ladies.

I couldn’t help but want to be them a little.

Laughs.

Why?

In touch with nature,

Young,

beautiful,

brown,

full of potential…

Wait- What?

Laughs.

Reflections.

Connections.

I am what I attract?

I am what I see in the world?

I am but a reflection?

I am?

Who am I?

Am I fly too?

Am I the ugly I see?

Yea?

No?

Yea

Damn.

So.

All of it is beautiful.

All of us are beautiful.

Ugly Beautiful.

Beautiful Ugly.

Independent film.

I am?

Just am?

I don’t know.

Laughs.

I just am.

’Cause they are.

I am.

I am Oro.

I am Lauren.

I am Ava.

Nahh.

Yea.

I am me.

Laughs.

I people watch in the park.

Saw me in some fly young ladies.

We Am.

Selfish

Attempting to shelf me, only interested in my selfie

Selfish selfish 

Your surface level attraction not enough for my satisfaction

“You a selfish ass woman”

You damn right

Not built to make you a believer

I am no Mrs. Clever and this ain’t Leave it to Beaver

Mister – fix it your damn self

My energy is heaven sent and better spent on these babies

I’m teaching them to be selfish 

To say no

To never let a lame impede their flow

To know their truth and not let genetics or kinetics get in the way of their destiny

Infinite evolution in motion

Energetic billionaire with millions of minutes 

Are you just mad cause I won’t spend them on you?

“You a selfish ass woman”

Yup and you can catch these hands just like that fear

Self-defense 


Writer’s Note: Been boppin’ to Selfish by Little Simz all am. *laughs like Regine from Living Single  Hit the link and bop with me -selfishly. *sings Cleo Sol’s parts extra loud and dances like a pageant mom “My best friend is I… I’m so selfish.”