I’ve been thinking a lot about my ego and the way it shows up and informs my thoughts and behaviors.
My first thought was how to get rid of it. But, after doing some reading about what the ego is, I came to an understanding of my ego and its purpose. I realized that vanquishing my ego isn’t really necessary. Coming to this understanding made me want to love on my ego. So often the best response is: just show love.
I imagine that my ego is an angry scared little brown girl that looks just like me. She is trying to navigate a reality that is constantly telling her who she is, what she should do, who she should be with, and where she should be. Being bombarded with all those directives can be frustrating and confusing. She is attempting to perceive this world from place of anger and fear. Damn. So, I wrote her a letter.
Dear Little brown ego,
I love you. Our higher self is here. God is here. We are in the present moment. We are grateful. You can do whatever you want. You do not have to stick to the same old patterns. You are not bound by tradition or the advice of people who don’t know you or the truth within your spirit. I love you ego. Thank you for reminding me of who I am not. Thank you for pushing me to be present.
I have let go of my expectations of my ego. I simply guide her sometimes angry ass to more peaceful patterns. Often times I just get really silent and turn my energy off; anger and fear need energy to persist. I imagine myself hugging her until the hurt, lies, negative perception, and fear melt and then I step back and just let her be.
We are free Little brown ego. We are free.
Photos courtesy of : DC Moody
Good Read on the ego: http://www.pathwaytohappiness.com/happiness/2013/02/26/what-is-the-ego/
:(3) brilliant intellectually; enlightened or enlightening, as a writer or a writer’s works
I spent a lot of time in darkness, cloaked in fear choosing to be there simply because I didn’t believe in my own light. I had forgotten that this awesome beautiful light that God placed inside of me was capable of illuminating even the darkest spaces/moments.
I will remind you as I have been reminded: When darkness descends that is when your light is the strongest. That is when other lights will emerge as if from nowhere to enLIGHTen your path providing exactly what the Creator knew you needed while preparing you to do the same for another when the time comes. There in the darkness is where you earn your wisdom, strength, patience, and courage. There in the darkness is where spiritual muscle is built. Our light makes the lessons of the darkness clear. So open your heart, look for the illumination and believe in your own.
We must not fear the darkness because we are luminous.
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