yellow flowers

majority opinion

does not equal

truth

yellow flowers rain down on solemn shoulders

heads bow in prayers of thanks continually – even for enemies

happiness blooms deep inside watered by tears of sorrow giving way to repentance

no regrets

no backwards movement

losses so big the losers could never be the same

Forgiving bomb dropping gas-lighters with grace – then giving them space

God’s job to deal and heal

Guiltlessly reappropriating time to environments that incite growth

yellow flowers fall on solemn shoulders

heads bow in prayer continually-even for enemies

majority opinion

does not equal

truth

Author’s Note: 2 Corinthians 7:10-11

less is more

… comfortable being a nobody because it really isn’t about me…

i am no queen – simply here to serve…

the more i learn the more i realize i must keep learning

grateful for the opportunity

no beating myself up for what i didn’t know and the mistakes i’ve made

just learning and growing

there is more

more to learn

more to let go (yes -you negative feelings- be out- thanks)

more to forgive (everyone and everything on repeat- and forgive me too- please (?))

more to be grateful for (moment to moment)

more to turn away from (help me Jesus – homies keep me accountable)

more patience to practice (deep breathes and slow walks)

more grace to pray for (thank you kindly)

more behaviors to let go

more behaviors to nurture

It’s a lot

But there is heavenly help and earthly support

For this i am grateful -thank you

Comfortable being nobody

maybe because i’m God’s somebody

here to serve

well hello 2021…

Me on the phone with God

The truth is unchanging

Real love endures

God’s love transforms

Karma ain’t real

I call myself/my self Young Grandma now and spent hours on the phone with God these days.

Having learned the hard way that chatting it up with humans that don’t grow you or don’t even really know you is just an epic waste of time.

But many of us have had to learn this lesson.

It annoys me that people try to figure each other out via the interwebs- Peering into screens as opposed to peering into the souls of our peers, colleagues, and loved ones in real life.

I don’t freely or intimately speak with many anymore but I listen freely, offering advice only when I am asked or when I can bill one for it.

It is what it is- tired of being kind then called fake – or being stern/honest then called aggressive by people who don’t know me or themselves for that matter.

I have always appreciated quality over quantity and am absolutely blown away and grateful for the genuine God filled people that share their truths with me and allow me to share mine.

Thank you.

Thank God.

I am very much an imperfect sinner. I smiled as I wrote that.

But my brother Jesus gave me his g-pass so I’m saved. There is no sibling this loving, merciful, and forgiving.

Get to know Him.

By g-pass I mean gospel pass.

Laughs – only one I will ever need.

What is the gospel? – I was asked this question every Friday for four weeks and though I can answer the question I am not yet ready to write a succinct answer.

So I have included a link to a book that can answer that question at the end of this post.

I think of myself as a warrior – it’s more empowering then being a victim more sane then being Catwoman.

I mean I was raised by literal warriors – military soliders.

a man and a woman – a husband and a wife – a mother and a father

My parents…

It is safe to say that I have a good deal of fight in me.

God is teaching me to fight the right fights though- to come to Him first and quite often I leave the battles at His feet & He does the rest… then I can rest.

True peace that only God can give.

Rest.

My older lady best friend and my mom (former soldier) often remind me to put on the armor of God.

This I do daily.

Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. Ephesians 6:11

I do be. Laughs

If you can’t handle my grammar or punctuation please (kindly) get off my site.

Remember this is my sliver of the interwebs.

Transformation is the quest for this caterpillar in Christ… accepting the way God made me, repenting daily, rejecting the way the world attempts to play me – thanking the people that pay me.

Laughs.

Future me said the caterpillar 🐛

*looks around blog

I’m not sure what this blog is but it’s fun to write without dead lines.

I appreciate you dear readers from around the world- I see you.

I will leave you with one last scripture and links to things I dig on the inter-webs.

Peace – until next time dear reader – you are loved.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Psalms 143:8

Timeless truth: https://www.amazon.com/What-Gospel-9Marks-Greg-Gilbert/dp/1433515008#immersive-view_1610102233405

Timeless style: https://rachelcomey.com/

Timeless reading: https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/article/item/whats_driving_political_violence_in_america

Timeless Sound: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9OgU-W-ItG0

Almost doesn’t count

I almost filed down my fangs for you

I think this as I wipe the blood from my mouth and kiss your forehead

Feeling like Janie must have felt after she shot Teacake

Now your eyes are closed

And my eyes are watching God – praying I’ll been granted forgiveness for literally eating this man

I almost filed down my fangs for you

But when has almost ever counted?

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Art by: Jefferson Terry

Black Rage

Been mad as three hells lately

The link below has helped.

https://girltrek.us18.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=6aa11fa786466642f2188db2e&id=fd9095c5dc

Thank you beautiful Black Women for showing up with the healing yet again

I’ll be back soon got some letting go to do

Be safe out here and remember you are loved

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You thought.

he thought no one noticed the nasty petty things he did

he thought no one heard the fucked up words he had spoken

Leaving out details and retelling the “truth”

Boasting, bragging, and putting others down

he thought no one noticed the small things he did to get under our skin

Quietly we listen and watch

As the archangels implore us to hold our position

God cut us a deal and told us our mission -Respond from a higher place or not at all -there will be blessings – there will be gifts

We focus on this deal – Understanding that we have a responsibility to be more then the negative energy we receive/perceive

Remembering that we aren’t victims in the least and that these are tests of character

Our anger has boiled over once or twice …

We remind ourselves that We aren’t perfect either and We remove ourselves and feel our feelings as needed

Transmuting anger with heavenly help

We reset and regroup

Continually praying and realigning ourselves with the peace We’ve worked so hard to cultivate

his self hate and jealousy would not and could not derail us

We are built for more and this battle isn’t ours

he thought that no one noticed the nasty petty things he did

O, I noticed cackled Karma as she clocked in for work

The battle was never ours

You thought that no one noticed

You thought.

Photo: Finan Akbar via Unsplash

User not Lost

She fell backwards into anonymity

Unreachable (to some)

Unidentifiable (mask on)

Slightly traceable ( she never hid)

Who she is doesn’t matter

Who she isn’t doesn’t matter either

She was sent here for a purpose

The drama and the bullshit – not it

God whispered instructions into her right ear

Clear and realigned it was time

Angels surrounded her -even on the dark days

Especially on dark days

She said thank you one more time

And fell backwards into anonymity

Lend Ms. Hay your ear and your heart…

Take a listen – I’m sure you have five hours.

Focus on yourself before God puts you back on the shelf…

Inner reflection

Divine connection

Lately I haven’t had a lot of words.

Been doing a lot of listening-

Focusing on my heavenly connections – where my help always come

Unconditionally, I am loved by God and this universe

Unconditionally, I am protected from negativity

Our focus is everything right now

What goes on in our outer world(s) is a reflection of what is happening in our inner world(s)

Peaceful hearts, minds, and souls tend to create beauty and facilitate healing and growth of all those they encounter

War filled minds, souls, and broken hearts tend to create disharmony, division, and more brokenness –

I know it isn’t easy to exist peacefully around a bunch of war minds- stirring shit up just to stir shit up. I know.

Laughs…

But peace and love are quite powerful.

You can peacefully and lovingly defend the healthy boundaries you create.

Maybe even inspire some to war no more simply by living peacefully

Maybe

Takes practice

Takes persistence

You want to do something powerful and life changing for yourself and your community?

Takes patience

Start with you

Love you

Focus on you

Fix you

Pray for …. you

Meditate

Journal

Eat well

Exercise

Chill on the criticism, judgment, the GOSSIPING, and just the foolishness in general

Now is definitely not the time to make anyone’s journey harder…

What you put out will surely come back.

Surely

Pressed down and shaken together

So start with you.

Focus on yourself before God puts you back on the shelf…

Tick tock player

Aglow with Knowing

Listen, Read and let your soulllllll glow…
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Lilith’s Lit Daughter, Pencil drawing by Me

Whom the phuck shall you fear- aren’t you the light?

I remind myself of who’s I am as I step into the night aglow

I get to know my darkness so it won’t consume me

I get to know my darkness so it can’t entomb me

There is power and strength in knowing and loving all sides of yourselves

Sharing the light of God with my demons we are reminded of our true essence

Now we work together in the dark of night for the light

Whom the phuck shall you fear- aren’t you the light?

Via: www.merriam-webster.com

your·selves | \ yər-ˈselvz  , Southern also -ˈsevz \

Definition of yourselves

1: those identical ones that are you used reflexively

Get yourselves a treat, for emphasis, or in absolute constructions

2: your normal, healthy, or sane condition or selves 

you will feel more like yourselves after a good rest

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