people watchin’

The part-time recluse stepped out to people watch dressed in black lace and gold leather.

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Last Call

She called to his spirt in hopes that it would answer

In hopes that belief would find him in the night and wrap his consciousness in stars and shine light into his darkness

Opening him up to the beauty that is everything- to the love at his core

The queen calmed her own fears she knew that this may not be their time and her voice may not be the one for his ears

Maybe the moment for this pairing would be in the future when the king was ready for the work-when the king could really love himself, express his feelings, and find gratitude in each moment

Maybe she had to continue on her light filled journey alone- her solo act explosive enough to ignite his spirit

Life was too beautiful for her to stand waiting for too long

The king would find her but only after he found himself

Calling was draining

So the queen stopped calling and prayed to the Creator to release her from this task

He will find his way in his own time soothed the Creator

And away went the queen confidently into her destiny – because what was for her was for her

 

believe in yo self

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean I don’t exist

I show you my heart and my art and I see blossoms of disbelief in your eyes

You want an explanation of the why or the how or the origin

Evidence of your inability to except and appreciate things, people, and places just as they are, and not what you expect them to be

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean that I don’t exist

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean that I won’t persist

Thank you for not believing in me

Thank you for showing me your disbelief with your words and your actions

Your disbelief  has freed me

Freed me to realize that the only beliefs that truly count are my beliefs about myself and my belief in  the  Higher Power that created me

I believe in me and I do exist

Creator may we?

May all the women of the world fall in true love with themselves

May we raise our standards and love from an authentic unconditional place

May God bless and protect us from those that only come to harm intentionally or unconsciously

May we have the strength to loosen ourselves from the grasp of fuckery

May we heal ourselves and elevate pass relationships of any nature that are unhealthy

May we breath life into our dreams and suffocate our dramas

May we all receive the love we so deserve and desire

May we rest in the awareness of the present moment and all the heavenly guidance that surrounds us and breathe in deep breaths of gratitude

For these and other blessings I pray

Amen

No periods – Stream of thought

Romance isn’t dead

Maybe our belief in it is

Can we resurrect our belief in romance?

What is love and what is lust?

Thinking back on my lessons i.e. my exes

That was love and that was lust -I categorize

My awakening from my own Disney dreams of idealistic romance push me to find balance as possible loves approach

On dates with suitors who think that flashy monologues about who they are will win my heart and panties (or in some cases just the panties)

I realize that I must be frank about my feelings and thoughts (or lack of feelings and thoughts) in respects to these suitors who are only enraptured by their own reflection in my eyes so that they too can wake up

They don’t care to actually know me and don’t even seem to realize that what they are falling for is an illusion they have created

I am not mad about this or even sad because I have done this too

I find myself grateful that I am even aware that their like/love/lust for me isn’t really about me

Romance isn’t dead maybe my belief in it was

I am not a Disney princess – I am a new age Queen happily building a kingdom solo aware that a King is coming

Aware that I will just know when he arrives

Aware that I will know because of all that I’ve seen all that I’ve learned and all that I believe

Romance isn’t dead and I will never stop believing