The stories they told

Time- the only true truth teller it seemed…

She let time tell the story.

Time was her teacher and she listened with appreciation.

Quotes, links, and things that have soothed my soul this week:

“Work on how you respond when you feel disrespected.” -Nipsey Hussle

Truth In Silence

Time really does heal all wounds- but we must allow it.

Stay well Butterflies

Photo of books: @joshstyle via Unsplash

Love is / Love isn’t

I put my mental, physical, spiritual, and financial health first. Unapologetically.

I am honest about what I can and can not handle and I say no to carrying anyone’s burdens or stresses.

This does not make me weak.

When things seem overwhelming I take a moment to check in with God and myself reaching out to my support system if I need to.

I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination and I release guilt for not always handling things “perfectly”.

I surround myself with unconditional genuine love and I thank God for it.

I have all that need.

Thank you.

Love and compassion for the Women (big and small)

My brother sent me this link at 6:25am right after my 5:45 yoga class. He’s always so right on time. *Laughs

I needed to laugh and smile.

My alignment was off for various reasons. It’s been a long beautiful yet trying week. I’m growing and facing truths and sometimes it is uncomfortable.

I realize that I have to exercise a lot more self-compassion and I’m so thankful for the people in my life who take the time to listen to me, understand me, and offer me kindness and compassion.

I am thankful that I listen to me and understand me.

I have to remember to focus on the healthy love and relationships in my life.

There is no space or time for anything else.

*watches clip again

It’s so beautiful to see/hear a man take the time to understand a little woman’s feelings rational or irrational then aid her in moving through them by asking her what she needs/wants.

It would have been easy to attack, defend, or invalidate her feelings but something higher was chosen.

That’s beautiful. That’s what we deserve to give to ourselves and to others and to receive from others.

My brother sent me this link at 6:25am right after my 5:45am yoga class. He’s always so right on time.

Yes God.




Retrograding Woman/ Venus

There are four fire signs fistfighting in the fifth house

Venus must be retrograding

I laugh to myself

Mostly sure my Karmic debits are paid

God closed my eyes for a few moments to  remind me to feel

That is what will heal

Once so worried about using my eyes forgetting  to feel the vibe

Almost left the tribe

I smile now

That’s past and I ’ve learned to appreciate the contrast

A little more than $2 to my name and no desire for fame

I smile

It’s been a while since I’ve be here in the clear with no fear

There are four fire signs fistfighting in the fifth house

Venus must be retrograding

But it’s okay because love is on the way

 

 

Royal Palm

[found this in an email to myself from 2014]

She rode thru old spaces
Thinking of all those places
The words that fell from faces
Their weight had held her down
Horrified that she would drown
She now realized that  fight she fought
And the fucked up shit it brought
Those actions were the offspring of fear
Amanayea came with the light & made it clear
Fear is Darkness meddling in your mind
Awakened to Truth she put fear’s ass in line
She refused to focus on the fuckedupness of life
the constant replaying of perceived strife
She rode thru old spaces
Thinking of all those places
The words that fell from faces
They were never holding her down-
They were building her up so she could wear the crown

believe in yo self

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean I don’t exist

I show you my heart and my art and I see blossoms of disbelief in your eyes

You want an explanation of the why or the how or the origin

Evidence of your inability to except and appreciate things, people, and places just as they are, and not what you expect them to be

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean that I don’t exist

You don’t believe in me but that doesn’t mean that I won’t persist

Thank you for not believing in me

Thank you for showing me your disbelief with your words and your actions

Your disbelief  has freed me

Freed me to realize that the only beliefs that truly count are my beliefs about myself and my belief in  the  Higher Power that created me

I believe in me and I do exist